First rule of being a Sinner is:
DON'T GET ATTATCHED.
Because people are good at one thing and one thing only: disappointing other people.
Go figure. A guy I like for an extensive amount of time turns out to be exactly like every other guy. Silly me for thinking that maybe he'd be different. Oh well.
And "every other guy" here having the meaning of the other 14 guys I've dated. So yeah, I think I've got a few clues.
/sigh
I think my question now is, to go on letting him treat me like a whore or do I tell him to fuck off and find some other tail to mind fuck?
I wish these things were simpler, like surgically removing my heart. Or something.
About Me
- Hell's Quookie
- Majority of the time I feel like I am a ghost wandering the hallways of people's minds, learning how to flow back and forth between this world and my own. But seriously, I read too much and allow myself to get sucked into the lives of characters because they are never in short supply. I am a dreamer, a melodrama queen, and above all else a sinner.
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You know. If you would have allowed me to be a part of your life, maybe you wouldn't be in regret of what ended up happening. I occasionally check back and look to see if you write. Because, in all honesty, it might just give me a glimpse at what is going on with your mind. I tried to be kind. And even in the moment, when you opted to lie to me. See me as an opponent. But I'm never what you blinded your entwined little mind. yet you minded to attempt to use me and you manage to seduce me. For a cry for help. A little yelp. I'm weak and I can't help but seek out, a girl who can shout. But not just any simple smile can make me walk a mile. But, a dimple, from the frown of a damsel in distress, who I know will digress, to my attempts. Not to impress, never, because she wont think me so clever. All I get is a whatever... Hopefully, not triumphantly, the pride of such a wild child will come forth. For I valued her more then she thought worth. Viewed what brewed deep inside little Z's eyes. I yearning, a fire, for desire. Burning to be free,the plea, of returning to feelings of old. Did I really lie? Did I not try? Did I explain, the intention, my main point. I mention yet once more... I never sought to have bought you like a whore. I even gave up the last forty bucks, I even let it go. For fucks, sake, did i not take, the offer you gave. Instead of payment for the money you held. I stayed put on the pave-ment. A weighed out the option with the only deduction, I wish not to catch you like a fish, I won't bait. Never will I stand as master and bait, allowing to give up yourself. Little elf, don't sell, such beautiful soul, to a hell. I hold till this date, the thought, that I "z" the end and "a" beginning.Take my hand. A friend here and hear me, I stand. Allow me to guide and help fear disappear. Mend what is lost, with no cost. I'm not in a store, looking for more. But I will say, I adore, the wicked, grief stricken. Little Z, don't you see? It's the vocabulary. A to Z.. It's how imagination weaves more then just story. Like tree's branches, cover you hide under, security. Stop, don't drop. Chances are, if your on a ledge,if you call. I'll hold a blanket, to break the fall,in a hurry, to end the fury. I won't sit back and watch. Let catch all your worries. Accept don't, except my metaphor. Like Poe once said, "never more." No.. Zed never more allow to be used, abused as a whore.... I'm not a raven just craven the flesh of a girl. I'll admire,dance, twirl as you prance. It's not a chance, my stance is true. For you, deserve a romance. Let me serve you as Lance. Princess? Didn't you say that day, when money you needed to pay. "You were supposed to be my knight in shining armor." I let you use, the excuse, to see if i'd be let in. Quickly pushed, because you rushed, away. Do I, at the least, get some cred, for the words that you've just read?
J'adore. La prostituée que vous vous dites et toi... Mais la vérité, je vois, une jolie fille. Spirituel.incroyable. élégant. bonbon comme une tarte. allez donc faire vous pas permettez-moi s'il vous plaît d'être votre ami.
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