I think I'm asking too much

I want to be social. I want to be happy. But I have no idea how to go about achieving it. I still feel that welling of jealousy when I look on things like Facebook, Myspace, yeah, it's sad. That's nice that you can recognize that, but that doesn't make the feeling any less...painful. I don't know. Maybe it was supposed to be like that. It's reassuring that the world will never be trapped inside it's little void of technology establishing and ensuring that that is what a social life, composed entirely comments, blogs, likes and dislikes. It's just what it is.

I find myself yet, again on the outside of the fishbowl, watching, learning, but alone on the outside.