The magic of the mind

Some people delve into fiction and fantasy, through means of literature, a craft of some kind where a design is necessary for its completetion. I cannot go so easily down that path.

I've been waiting to hear someone explain their interest in psycholgy the same way I do, because for some reason I'm obsessed with finding someone similiar to me in any way. But no. No one has come forward with the metaphor the mind is magic and I am alone in my obsession with it.

Manipulation is a very general category. It includes lying, seduction, creating a false sense of security, etc. But there is a particular aspect of manipulation that can be called an "art". Persuasion. It is not bending the truth or painting up some illusion people can dive into hopelessly infatuated with security and success. It is straight forward and most of the time honest. Broken down into its most basic sense it is either "you can have this choice" or "You can't."

Drama queens are manipulative, teenagers are manipulative, everyone does it one way or another, but it's not just lawyers and businessmen who specialize in it. Anyone can, it's just that few choose to do it. (Which is why it is probably such a deplorable trait because it is not a readily gained such as kindness or honesty) Most manipulation is shoddy, halfassed, full of holes that even the simplest of men can slip through. It's the artists I want, to examine, maybe even exploit.

And I will be hated for my honesty, I'm sure of it.

The magic of the mind is this; it is a game of the finest art. It has endless possibilities, it cannot be cheated so easily, and it never ceases being so surprising. It can be injured, in both the figurative and literal sense, and rebuild itself. It can be preserved through a multitude of media and change at a heart's whim without any notice. It is one of kind in its seductive mystery, and I will learn everything I can about it.

Because knowledge is power, and power is so rarely an art in itself.

I don't even-

First rule of being a Sinner is:

DON'T GET ATTATCHED.

Because people are good at one thing and one thing only: disappointing other people.

Go figure. A guy I like for an extensive amount of time turns out to be exactly like every other guy. Silly me for thinking that maybe he'd be different. Oh well.

And "every other guy" here having the meaning of the other 14 guys I've dated. So yeah, I think I've got a few clues.

/sigh

I think my question now is, to go on letting him treat me like a whore or do I tell him to fuck off and find some other tail to mind fuck?

I wish these things were simpler, like surgically removing my heart. Or something.